…….oh god i’ve reached the point where i can jokingly talk about marriage and babies with matt the gentlemanfriend

like a few days ago we were talking about comic book-themed weddings and star trek spy AU-themed engagement shoots and then we were like “one day the kids will find these pictures and they’ll upload them on whatever the mid-21st century equivalent of facebook is and their friends will laugh the same way we laugh at our parents and their ridiculous 80s weddings” and it seemed like the most natural conversation ever

and sometimes we’ll be like “ugh we’re so boring in 80 years we’re gonna have to embellish some awesome rocking chair stories!!!” 

and i guess it’s different because we are not actually planning our lives together; we only talk about hypothetical things that may or may not happen in the very distant future the same way i may be like “if i win the lottery i’m gonna buy a first edition copy of on the origin of species!!!”

but sometimes it scares me

it scares me that i’m not scared to even ~go there anymore

it’s all happening so fast!!!!

…even though not really bc we’ve been at this for like… a year… but my relationships romantic or platonic tend to move at a glacial pace so